This is the second G post, and a second post on the God Clan, the collection of Gods I work with in various ways. The first post (link) talked about how I came to have a God Clan. In this one, I wanted to talk a little bit more about the Gods it contains and how I relate to Them. And I will try to keep this very brief, because there is a lot here to cover, and I can’t possibly write it all down in one go. So some of it will be quite superficial, but I may go into some of these in more detail later on when I finish up the Clan pages over on Per Sebek.
Sobek, my Father
I’ve known Him a long time, and to His credit, He did try to show me He was my father long before my RPD, but I completely missed that layer of meaning in the dream He sent me, even though I kind of thought He might be. I think part of my hesitation was not really knowing what it was like to be owned by a God like that.
Heru-sa-Aset – my Father’s Beloved
I feel I ought to know Him better than I do, but He has remained elusive and difficult to connect with. I have really struggled with this, because the few experiences I have with Him are so very different to how everyone else seems to get Him that I worry I am just mistaken. But I’ve learnt to trust myself over the years, and even though I find Him frustratingly hard to talk to, Sobek would not be Sobek without Him there, and I could not fathom Him not being there. I speak to Him through Sobek, for the most part, which is why He is my Father’s beloved more than anything else. Most of the time, He is just a warm breeze, wrapping itself around me like a pair of giant wings.
Aset/Isis – my Mother
She was the first deity I ever met, and She got me through my Italian oral exam in year 12. A winged Isis statue was the first god statue I ever bought, way back in 2001. I still have it, though it has been decommissioned due to being broken too many times. It’s just polyresin, but it holds such fond memories and energy that it would be hard to dispose of, at least right now.
But that’s kind of irrelevant. She has always been there for me, and I am proud to call Her my Mother. She is terrifying at times, and Her shapeshifting ability means I have never seen more of Her than Her dark blue dress, which consumes me whole. But She is so full of love for me, and She first showed me what it felt like to be loved by a god. I can’t stop loving Her. She is just completely amazing. <3
Djehuty – my magician, teacher and guide
My fondest memories of Djehuty are some biomed and genetics labs I had at uni, back when I was still studying science. Such a curious god! He loved watching me do experiments, particularly the genetics ones. He found the whole process endlessly fascinating, and He just wanted to play with everything. He’s always been there to inspire me and make me write things. He’s also the first one who ever showed up in my dreams wearing the mask of an actor. (I believe it was Tommy Lee Jones, we were in a cinema, and He named me IbDjehuty in that dream. This was way back in 2004. The name means ‘Djehuty’s heart’; He showed me a movie ticket for a film which I understood/read as ‘IbDjehuty’s Temple’. Perhaps He was sowing the seeds of priesting even back then. IDK.)
Djehuty also doesn’t give me things to do. No, Djehuty gives me questioning suggestions, such as, ‘but what if your magic system DID work?’. YEAH. Stuff like that! He has a way of suggesting it in a way that makes me think about it, but there’s never any obligation to actually do anything about it. It’s like, here’s an idea, and it’s up to me to think about it and whether I want to pursue it. I feel it’s a really good way to get me to think about these things, too. It forces me to think about the things He’s asking me to do, and whether I really want to do them. Headcovering is one of these things. I am still thinking about it.
Wepwawet – who opens the way
I fear I don’t know Him as well as I ought to. All I ever ‘see’ of Him is a grey wolf, and He has a ‘thing’ with Djehuty and Ganesha. I’m still working on getting to know Him, though I don’t believe He will be as elusive as Heru-sa-Aset. He did help me free a native spirit a while back, who had come down to our house with some boab tree seeds my dad had picked up from the Kimberley region in Western Australia. The spirit was with us for about three years, and the reason it took so long to get through to me was because we didn’t speak any common language. All it wanted to do was go home to its own country, and once I’d understood that, after threatening to execrate that creepy shadow with Sobek the Rager, I asked Wepwawet to help it and free it. It hasn’t come back, so I hope it’s happy.
Ganesha – my guide
Oh, Ganesha. <3 I love that wonderful elephant. He is just so adorable, and I feel like He’s always smiling. He has been hanging out with Djehuty – at least in my experience – for as long as I can remember. I often imagine Them chilling in some oasis, drinking beer and milk, and having a grand old time. They seem to be genuinely good friends.
Wesir-Ra – gods I am rather fond of, and who seem to like me, for lack of a better description
What it says on the tin? IDK. I like Them, They like me, it’s … a thing? I kind of met Wesir-Ra by accident. I’d come across the description of Wesir-Ra, and the epithet ‘the midnight sun’, and it just got me intrigued. I think it was the first time I did the Night Vigil for the Mysteries of Wesir that I first came to know Him. Ra came later. At some point, They became Wesir-Ra. Separate, but joined. I always felt like Ra would be quite intense, just like the Sun, but I think His connection with Wesir has softened Him, at least in my experience. He also asked for an image of Khonsu to be used for Him, rather than one of Ra, and I think it’s because it has that lunar connection to Wesir, while also having a handy disc I can paint red to indicate Ra’s solar side. Plus, it has a really lovely face. <3
Amun – my companion
Amun approached me, pretty much out of nowhere, a couple of years ago. I honestly can’t think of anything I did to attract Him; He just turned up, and began following me to class. He was really interested in the magic system and the nine elements thing I was playing around with, and wanted to know how it worked. He’s very sweet and shy, and He was in shrine with me when Sobek decided to infodump the ‘Celestial Twins’ UPG on me. Even He was surprised by it.
It was Amun who asked if we might be companions one afternoon as I was waiting for the bus. Companions was the word He used, and man, there is nothing that moves you like a god asking to be friends with you. He’s a very beautiful presence, and sometimes, I feel Him just touching my left hand, because He’s always on my left side, just reassuring me He’s still there. He’s a little more distant when He’s off doing other things, but I never get the sense He’s abandoned me. Just off doing God things, like everyone else does from time to time.
Hekate – household god; she who guards the liminal spaces
OH MAN HEKATE. She kind of used to scare the pants off me when I heard of how She’d turn up in people’s lives and TURN THEM UPSIDE DOWN. (Sounds like Set! I was always afraid He’d do that to me too.) Look, I just do not deal well with GOD CHAOS, so I was reluctant to really get to know Hekate, even though I did feel drawn to Her. What made me relent was knowing Sobek was fostering me off to Her, because there were things only She could teach me.
She was really intense, though, for those first few weeks. She infodumped so much, and I was glad I didn’t have any other committments or I’d have been in srs trouble. I eventually had to tell Her to slow down and back off, because I needed space to work through everything She’d told me, and that I needed a subtler form of guidance. And, to Her credit, She did back off, and while I can still see Her influence in certain places, it’s easier for me to deal with now.
The first time we met, She showed me an image of a screaming world tree, and it was my first indication I was getting a different side of Her than the one I’d often read about. I appear to have Her Cosmic World Soul aspect, which is terrifying in a different way. I am still fond of Her, even though our formal time together is over. I honour Her now as a household God, along with Hestia, Bast-Mut, and Ianus.
Hestia – household god; my hearth goddess
She turned up when we were building the new fireplace. There was a point at which She claimed it for Herself, and suddenly, I had a hearth goddess! It was before it was enclosed/finished, so I had time to slip a little hearth blessing inside. I feel like I began my household practices then, when I began acknowledging Her and the hearth. I will talk about Her more when I do one of my H posts on Hestia and Vesta, because I’m in that weird position of really digging Roman practices, but wanting to honour Hestia, rather than Vesta, and They feel very different to me, so yes. Fun times.
Bast-Mut – household god; she who patrols the borders
Bast-Mut and I have always had a distant sort of relationship. It’s professional, rather than personal. She started off guarding my shrines, with the two cat netjeri I acquired quite by accident. I didn’t even think of Her as Bast-Mut at first, but an old Kemetic friend was over one afternoon, and pointed out my Bast statue was Bast-Mut, because She has a winged snake on Her chest. I have actually never seen another Bast-Mut figure like Her since, and perhaps it was a one-off or something. IDK. But that’s when I knew She was Bast-Mut, and occasionally, I sense Her, and the cat netjeris patrolling around the boundaries of the house.
Ianus – household god; he who keeps the keys
Ianus is very new to me still, but I am growing fond of Him. I first met Him when I began doing the Solitary Druid Fellowship High Day rites in a Roman style, invoking Him as my gatekeeper (obviously.) He had a very wonderful presence, and I am glad to include Him as a household god and gatekeeper. He has some similarities with Hekate, but not enough to feel like they are proper equivalents.
The Mousai Titanides – who sing my inspiration
These Muses are known as the Titan Muses, or the Elder Muses. I met Them writing a Xanadu-inspired crossover fanfic, as I was looking for other Muses to use that weren’t the Olympian ones, because I have never felt very inspired by Them. I found a description of these three Muses by Varro on … a website (I forget where!), and it was the most beautiful thing ever. I finally *got* the Muses at that moment, and once the fic was finished, the Muses stuck around, mostly because I knew who They were. They are such happy Muses, and as Muses of Song, They usually tend to sing to me, or use songs to inspire me.
Apollo – who guides the oracles
I feel like He kind of … came with the Muses, but I’m still figuring Him out. Certainly invoking Him before taking oracles or readings has helped, though I am still working out whether I am working with Apollo, or Apollon. I call Him Apollo for no reason than that is the name He seems to prefer, but that does not mean it is the Roman Apollo. It could just be, like Aset, that Isis is just a facet of Her, but still a part of Her. Apollo might be a facet of Apollon, a small slice of a much more complex god. But like I said, I mostly work with Him in an oracular/divinatory sense at the moment.
The Ancestors – who came before
It feels weird not to include them, y’know, in my Clan. I still don’t have a great relationship with my ancestors, but I’m slowly working on it. I know I need to start writing their names down in my ancestor/akhu book, but I need an updated list from my dad, I think, so I can confidently write down only those who have died, and not anyone still alive. I’m trying to connect mostly with my maternal grandparents, because I knew them the best out of all the ancestors I have.